mental closure.

Question: how does one move forward without closure and not keep going back?

You want to move forward but something’s holding you back and you can’t seem to find an explanation for it. kind of like being stuck in reversed..  

nunal ng kapalaran o kalokohan?

i have a mole near my nose, it’s in the path where tears fall. And my mom, after years of absence in my life, eh ngayon lang napansin na may nunal ako dun..sabay humiret saken ng: "kaya pala dami ka frustrations sa buhay..!"

araykopo..ganon??

apparently, malas daw yung nunal kong yon, and she was very concern, she told me, i should have it removed.. well, para saken ok lang, basta sagot nya gastos, hehe. pero medyo natawa ko sa sinabi nya, Josko..kase naman, yung mom ko eh napakaraming mga paniniwala sa buhay.. sabi din nya saken dati, nung humihingi me ng money para process ng visa ko for dubai, kelangan daw magpahula muna ko..kase un pagaabroad nasa guhit ng kapalaran ng isang tao, at sabi nya pa, hinulaan daw sya dati, at sameng dalawang magkapatid, ang hula daw eh si bunso ang makakapag-abroad.. at isa pa, pag bibili ng sasakyan dapat papahula din..tapos nung bagong dating sya dito, yung mga plastic na plants and flowers and vines na pinadala nya dati, hala, pinagkakabit sa bawat sulok ng bahay namen, feng-shui churvaness daw..pati yung nakapatong na salamin sa cr na nakaharap sa pinto eh malas din daw.. Jusmiyo mamamiah..ewan ko kung san san nya yun natututunan.. well, siguro, sa tagal nya sa Japan, na-adopt na nya mga paniniwala ng mga hapon..hehe.

anyway..balik sa usapang nunal..out of curiosity, i searched the internet..

The Chinese believe moles can be lucky or unlucky depending on where they are located, what colour they are, and how large they appear in proportion to our body.

and according to the book Moles and their Meanings: 

… every mole upon the face of man or woman has upon some other portion of the body a corresponding birthmark, the position of which can generally be located with startling accuracy.

Until it was removed by surgery the singer Enrique Iglesias had a mole on his right cheek, near to his nose.What did it say about him? The mole was “honey-coloured” rather than black, and it appeared at position 54 in the face chart. Here’s what De Windt says about such a case:

Denotes misfortune, but only at an advanced age. Youth and middle age shall be peaceful and prosperous. This sign is specially favourable to the knowledge of secret and occult things - a marvellous and intuitive reader of human character.

also, i came across a Japanese proverb which got me really thinking:
"A child with a mole in the path of his tears is destined to lead a sorrowful life full of them."

why, i’ve one such mole, near my nose as i’ve mentioned earlier, and because, so far my life is going nowhere but down..down..down..how curious.

i must be silly to consider this whole thing to be true, but silly ideas are made no less silly because some gentlemen long deceased once wrote books about them..Japanese and Chinese people believed these things too, and my mom was right, i do have a lot of frustrations..and i’m getting desperate..it wasn’t like i haven’t been trying my best to make my life better, and like my mom used to say how hardwork is important to achieve my goals, i really think as well, that it is as important to be lucky. And as far as im concerned, lucky is something that i’m not getting lately..i’m beginning to think that perhaps my mole has something to do with it, and maybe, just maybe, getting rid of it will make life better. (right! im sounding more like being dellusional than desperate. ) hehe.. well, i should get it remove then..for a change..i mean, what’s the worst that can happen right? surgical pain is nothing compared to a life full of sorrow..whether you believe these things to be true or not, i think we should all make a point in future–just in case–you know what they say; good advise is always welcome..isn’t it? lol.

while some say that the moles on our bodies are in reality secret imprints carried over from our previous lives, stamps of some past karmic deed meant to ripen in this life, good as well as bad. Others contend that moles are messages of good fortune and misfortune that reflect important turning points of our life. Each noticeable mole on our body carries a hidden meaning, or depicts some secret obstacle or unexpected help from someone.

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